I want to start off by saying, wow thank you all for reading my posts. When I started this blog, I did not expect to get the feedback I have so quickly. I’m honestly so humbled by so many of your responses and couldn’t be more grateful that you guys enjoy my content.
This post and my next one will not be specific to bipolar disorder, but to mental illness as a whole. I hope you enjoy.
Back in October 2018 I decided to get a small tattoo behind my left ear. It was kind of spontaneous, but at the same time, I knew it was what I needed. That sounds weird, “needing” a tattoo. I don’t know how else to explain it other than this simple tattoo I got really made me who I am. Or at least showed the world who I am. So you’re probably like, “okay what is it? Let’s see it already.”
This is it. It’s tiny, I know. But its impact is far from tiny. I had discovered the quote in which this post in entitled a few weeks before I got this tattoo. For some reason those two just went together in my head. If you don’t know, the semicolon tattoo represents suicide awareness. It is supposed to mean that your life is like a semicolon, it doesn’t end just yet, you’ve got more to say.
Both the quote and the semi colon really reached out and spoke to me. For a big part of my life, mental illness and suicide have been a part of it. I struggled with my own demons, and I watched the love of my life struggle too. I watched several famous people struggle. I watched kids from all around the world struggle, and the world didn’t do anything. The world broadcasted their death and said how sorry they were. And it broke my heart. Because suicide is something preventable, but we turn a blind eye to it all the time.
That was a big reason I majored in Psychology. I needed to change the world. I needed to be that change.
So I got this little tattoo to try to change it. I know a tattoo isn’t going to magically change everything, but it’s a conversation starter for sure. I wanted to be able to show people it, so maybe if they needed someone, they’d know I could help. I wanted to show the world where I stand.
I have watched the person I love this most be in so much pain and it is the hardest thing to see. Especially if you know that feeling yourself. If I could take all the pain away from everyone in the world, I’d do it in a heartbeat. Because no one deserves to feel that way.
To whoever is reading this, I hope you understand that. While the pain you may feel today makes you feel alone and hopeless, I promise it is temporary. When you think there are no more options for you, I know that there is. While the feelings you feel are real, it doesn’t mean you should end your life. There are so many more amazing opportunities and options out there for you, I promise. You’ve got this.